Reglan- WORST MED EVER

Today my sweet baby is 1 month old! YAY Happy Birthday baby girl!! And since she has been home I have not been able to produce much milk to actually feed her when she needs to be fed. I end up producing about 3 oz 2 times a day. She feeds more than that a day. Anywhoo, I talked to my Dr and he prescribed Reglan. Which was the worst medicane ever! I have NEVER in my life experienced such aweful side effects from a medicane like I did this one.

Around 2 am, after feeding Jade I layed her down in her crib and I got this aweful dizzy spell. I layed down and thought maybe I had gotten up too fast. So while I layed there I got another dizzy spell. By this point I was scared to death and was starting to sweat. I was having some sort of anxiety attack. I woke my husband up and he tended to me. I didnt know why this was happening to me. So I remembered that I was taking Reglan, and the side effects are...dizziness, drowsiness, anxiety etc...everything in the book that you can think of. My luck...I felt all of that .

Its about 8:00pm and I am starting to feel alot better now, I am tired and just a little weak, but I think its becase when you have an anxiety attack all your strengh gets drained! All I can say is if you know anyone who is having trouble lactating and their Dr. gives them this med....PLEASE....PLEASE tell them not to take this. I have looked up info on this med and it actually has long lasting side effects for those who have taking it longer.

Being a New Parent

Nobody said it would be easy, however I am enjoying every second with her. I'm still trying to recognize her diffrent types of cries. Her diffrent noises...some which scare me even though I know that they are harmless...but still scare the crap out of me. At night its still kinda hard to sleep, even though she does a great job at sleeping through 3 hr intervals until her next feeding...but I just stay up to hear evey noise she makes. I'm very paranoid. Thank God for my family who has helped me out so much, I sleep during the day while my mom watches her and then I take over the night shift.

So, while I am up at night....I have grown very fond of the Food Network.

The shows at night are actually pretty cool. I watch Iron Chef, Guys Diners, Drive-In's and Dives, Wrapped. They are pretty cool. It just seems that, thats the only channel that isnt showing anything on Michael Jackson.

The day my life changed :)

I was heading over to the L&D at 8:00pm to be there for my scheduled induction at 9:00pm. The weather was really weird, it was cloudy, windy and rainy! Before I headed out though, Ma came over so she could come with me and my sister came to wish me luck. We hugged and she went home. Look at those clouds...nasty huh?! So I get to L&D and well, they admit me and stuff...then they stick me with the IV auuughh that part sucked because they were using the new kind that was made of rubber so it hurt twice as much going in!

They gave me some Cervadil at 10pm....nothing! Then around 8 am they started up the Pitocin...the contractions came on, not as strong. They came and checked me regularly and I was only at 3cm dilated. However, the baby's heart was plunging in and out and they were worried about that. So they came and broke my water which HURT!!! Then here came the even stronger contactions! I wasnt given an epidural until 12 noon. Around 3:30pm on 6/30 my Dr comes in and says "We need to do a C-Section, seems like her cord is wrapped around her neck" He freaked me out because I was worried about her!

At 3:54pm on 6/30/09, my life changed...it changed in a way that words cant even explain. After so many years of trying, my husband hands me over my sweet little girl. I kiss her and cant even believe this is real...she is so warm and adorable and she is mine! This is the little person who would keep me up at nigh kicking me and tugging at me..LOL. She is the little monkey who would go crazy in my belly when she would hear her daddys voice. She is the one that has my heart and has totally changed my life. I just can not see myself loving anyone as much as I love her. I hold her in my arms and its still so unreal to me! But its true & its real and God gave ME this honor. I will try to be the best mom possible to my daughter, try to teach her good, and try and be at least close to how awesome my mom is. She has been brought in to a family who has waited for her for years! Welcome home my angel pie! I love you so much!