Summer Fun

I have a feeling this summer is going to be crazy hot. So we decided to get my girl a slip and slide. She's good at it lol. As usual, she plays outside and likes mom to wet her with the hose. This past weekend, we didn't have anything to do. And my honey has been working allot so we decided to take a ride to the beach. Something quick and fun. She built a sand castle and just enjoyed the beautiful weather. We took sandwhich stuff and enjoyed ourselves. 

We've had a busy couple of months. We took my baby to her first Walt Disney World on Ice show. Courtesy of her dearest Daddy :-). She had a blast. I asked her what character she would like to dress up as. Her answer....Jessie! That's my girl. 

Well, it's like her Daddy says "Whatever makes Princess happy " 

I think he definatley made that happen.  

Kindergarten for Jade

So yesterday was the first day of Kindergarten for my girl. I wish I could say that I was happy. But I would lying. 

My heart is in pieces. It's the first step in me letting go.  And it's been so hard for us. 

She woke up, super happy. Got her dressed and took her to eat Duncan donuts. Her Daddy took her too. 

As we walk in the class, she puts her things up and she sits at her table. She sits at a table with all boys (poor Jade). 

As I walk out, I take a last look at my baby...blow her a kiss and walk out. 

She didn't cry. I'm so proud of her. I spent most of the day crying and praying. My anxiety was so high. 

I was counting down the hours! But finally 3 rolled around and my baby was in my arms again. She said she had a good day. Which made me feel a million times better. 

My mom is having a hard time. Which was expected. However, I am so grateful that she watched her for me. That she took care of her and helped raise her. That she loved her so much. I will forever be grateful. 

Now all I'm doing is praying for a safe, fun year for my baby. 

Anxiety

I haven't really been blogging due to the fact that I've been spending lots of time with my Mom. She's been pretty down since the loss of her friend. 

It breaks my heart to see her like that. We've been busy just doing things with her, keeping her busy. 

My sweet Hubbs has been working his butt off. He hardly has a day off and we definately miss him a lot. 

I've been taking FertilAid and Ovaboost. I have to say I have been resting better. I have bad sleeping problems. The problem is because my anxiety is so bad, when I lay down my mind starts going crazy. Which leads to invasive thoughts. Nothing crazy but stuff like my family's health, our money etc. I guess the normal stuff, but my mind goes overboard. Jade got a fever Friday and I just went crazy!! I flipped out. My poor mom didn't know who to console...me or Jade. Thank God her fever broke after 24 hrs. We prayed over her and I feel whole heartedly that it was why she broke it so fast. But I was crying, freaking out and just worried sick!I hate being like that because I feel like I keep my daughter from doing things and I don't do things myself out of fear. I live in the "what if" stage. And I hate that. But with me sleeping better with these supplements I see that it helps reduce the anxiety a bit by helping me sleep. I haven't been on them but for 2 weeks. I will do a month review on this. I can tell you that I've had the best period ever! Crazy, I know! But it wasn't heavy or painful. It was the perfect period lol. 

I've ordered new OPK's and I also bought a basal temp thermometer. I've been temping every morning. 

Crossing my fingers and praying :-)

CD 22--NOTHING YET

Hello! I have to be honest. I am trying to stay as positive as I can. However, seeing these tests kinda make me feel discouraged. However, when I start feeling like that; my faith starts kicking in...and I am alright.

I have been testing daily, 2-3 times a day. This is what I have gotten so far. I think it looks pretty promising

They are getting a bit darker.


On an even better note...the wonderful people from Fairhaven Health were nice enough to send me a couple of months worth of supplements. I'll post a little more about it tonight as well as start taking my dosages.

CD 18.

I have been taking my Pregnitude every day, twice a day. I can honestly say I haven't had any side effects with it. I have been craving less sugar, actually I haven't had a sweet tooth in a while. Which is a good thing! 

I've also been keeping track of my ovulation with these OPK strips. Honestly, in a way...it kinda stresses me out. Every day is different. I test around the same time each day. I just don't understand why it sometimes picks up a surge (faint line) and that same day that evening I won't get anything! 

I have also been taking a look at my CM more and yesterday I did notice that it was a little cloudier but definitely stretchy. 

*sigh* Crossing my fingers and not losing hope! 

Maybe snow???

Looks like we have a "Winter Storm" coming to the good ol' state of Texas. The weather has been pretty crazy (typical) for us Houstonians. But tonight/tomorrow there may be a possibly that it will snow. 

I really hope it does because I want Jadey to see snow. I think every kid should see snow atleast 1 time in their entire childhood. :-) anywhoo...we will see what happens!

As far as dinner went today...I decided to cook up a big pot of Caldo de Pollo con Arroze ( Chicken and Rice). What a treat it was! It came out so delish. I even added some extra trimmings, cilantro, radishes, avocado, peppers and boy oh boy it came out sooo darn good! 

Cycle Day 10

As you can see the last 2 strips are from today. They look a bit darker right? Which means my LH surge is getting closer! How exciting!

TTC with Pregnitude???

The last time I blogged about this, I was on Metformin. http://ttc-us.blogspot.com/2013/04/trying-for-baby-2.html

Well needless to say, I STOPPED taking it. Not by Dr.'s orders but because it was making me too sick. I would feel cloudy, confused, hypoglycemic symptoms etc. The side effects were endless. I do have PCOS, however mine is not so bad. I don't have all the symptoms which I thank God for it!!

The Hubs and I have been talking and we have decided that we want to go ahead and start trying to conceive naturally. We were able to conceive our Jadey naturally and the second one naturally (which ended in a miscarriage). However, this time I have been making a few changes.

1. PREGNITUDE
I did a little research and found this product called Pregnitude (LOL). Yes, I know the name is funny but to be quite honest. I am actually LOVING it so far. Prior to Pregnitude, I would have 40-60 day cycles. The symptoms were HORRIBLE. My periods would last 7-10 days all heavy.

Since taking Pregnitude...my cylces have now dropped to 32-35 days (which is amazing). This all changed since October. My periods have been coming on the day or close to the day each month. And my flows are heavy the first 3 days and then it gets lighter.

Above is a screen shot of why my cycles look like now and the length. I would say, looks like its working. The ingredients in this is just Myo-I and Folic acid, which according to research helps promote ovulation and ovarian function. We will see *praying and crossing fingers*

2. OPK'S

I have never used Ovulation Kits, but I went and bought some strips and started testing on CD9 (just to be safe). I took my first one yesterday and there was a tiny faint line. Apparently, you have to wait until the test like is either as dark or darker than the control line. Once that happens that means you are about to ovulate with in 12-48 hours. This test picks up your LH surge which (if I read right) is a hormone that is produced prior to ovulation. Being that I have PCOS, I don't ovulate every month. So with this kit, I should be able to pin point ovulation. YAY!

3. WEIGHT LOSS

I am also starting to work out. I am starting to do Zumba 3 times a week and I am also on Weight Watchers. The last time I was on WW I lost 25 lbs which was AWESOME, but then I had my miscarriage and gave up. But I want to continue on it, because I feel good when I do, I sleep better and my anxiety goes away! Also, it motivates me to bring sexy back lol. The best part is that I do it with my Sister LOL!!!


4. FAITH AND POSITIVE THINKGING
I have been praying more and just thinking positive. My mom and dad always told me that if I surround my self with positive things, people and thoughts I will gain prosperity, peace of mind and just a positive atmosphere for me and my family. And I plan on doing that. What else could be more positive than God, family and love??  I am praying that this journey isnt a long one, but I will leave it in Gods hands. I will however continue doing my part :-)

Goliad Texas

After we said goodbye to our beautiful Mrs. Angie. We decided to take my mom for a little ride. Just to clear her mind. She's been pretty depressed. And I don't blame her. We stopped by The Hanging Tree in Goliad, Tx. 

This tree was used to execute. Story has it that over 70 people have been hung here. 

The court room is right behind it. Apparently, once they decided that they were going to be hung. They would just walk right on back and hang them. 

The little pink thing there is Jade lol. Goliad is a very tiny town. It has an old western feel to it. The stores were little and some were out to lunch and just hung a little sign saying "I'll be back in a bit" and wouldn't even lock the door. 

All in all it was pretty interesting. 

Mrs. Angie :-(

This Tuesday we lost our wonderful family friend...Mrs. Angie. She was such a beautiful person, inside and out. She was my moms best friend and was like family to us. We had such funny time lol. She always had something funny to say. 

Right now we are heading to her home town of Victoria, Tx. My Hubby, Mom, Jadey Poo and I. To attend her funeral :-(. 

Unfortunately our friend became sick. She faught and she faught but that nasty disease got her. :-(. My heart is so heavy. She was part of my life during such important times in my life. Our house warming party, Jades birth, her birthday. I will always cherish her and the beautiful memories we have of her. I will always love her. May you rest in peace our beautiful friend. You are no longer in pain.

 

Heart Murmur

Happy Late Halloween

My little Boo thang has been really into Disney movies lately! And I love it. I sing along with her and act it out with her (I do know ALL the words to every movie haha) and my hubs usually plays the role of the Prince LOL.

I have to say her all time favorite movie is Toy Story. She has been so obsessed with it!!! So for Halloween, she decided she wanted to be Jessie :-) We took her around the neighborhood. We were supposed to meet with some friends but there was a road block and ended up showing up a little later. But we took the time to take her to the fire department since they were doing stuff for the kids.
Here are a few snapshots!

It's been a long hard year!

Trying for baby #2

It's been a couple of LONG, hard months for us. However, my faith is stronger than ever and I know we will get thru these tough times.

In February, I got my regular cycle, and it finished normally. About a week after, I started spotting. I spotted for about 1 month straight. I didn't go to the Dr. because spotting is very common in women who have PCOS. When I finally went ( a month later) she told me it could be the PCOS and went ahead and gave me a pregnancy test. And it came back positive.

As soon as I left there, I went to my OBGYN and he did the blood work and the ultrasound. My HGC levels were very low, and he told me that I was having a miscarriage. Which I kinda know around when it happened. But I never knew that it was a miscarriage because the pain was not strong. I thought it was just cramps. He also said that my progesterone was really low. He suggested that I take some Methylergonovine and it would flush my body of the lining and everything else in there.

The day I took those pills...was the hardest day. I felt guilty, sad, relieved, scared all in one. Guilty because I should have gone to the Dr. sooner and MAYBE this baby would still be growing inside of me.
Sad, because I felt that I was getting rid of the baby. When I know there was nothing left inside of me but the lining of my uterus. Relieved because this would finally be over and we could start again. Scared because I didn't know what would happen during this time.

When I picked up my pills the Pharmacist was so nice, she looked at me. Held my hand, and walked around the counter and hugged. She said " I know this is hard, but God has his reasons" and I truly believe that.

I bled for about 2 month after, the Dr. said he wanted me to flush it out with out having to do a D&C because it could cause me scar tissue, especially since there really wasn't much for him to scrape out.

I finally got at phone call 2 weeks ago telling me that my levels finally dropped to 0! Took them long enough!!!

But now! Its time to start again. He wants me to go on the 3rd day of my cycle and he will determine if I am ovulating. If I am, he will put me on progesterone to help with the pregnancy if I get pregnant. He also put me on Folic Acid and on Metformin. The Metformin makes my blood sugar drop alot! I don't take the recommended dose. I take 1/4 of the pill to start me off. I will work my way up eventually.

In the mean time, I thank God for my little blessing Jade!  She is getting so big and sillier! I also thank Him for not allowing me to see a heartbeat. I think that if I would have seen the heartbeat it would have been harder for me.

Now it's time to baby dance and enjoy ourselves!! So here is to trying to conceive...my 2nd journey to motherhood!

Train Ride at Kemah

If there is one thing my girl likes...it's trains!

She has been asking me for a week, to take her on the train. So finally this Sunday, we didnt have anything planned at all.
We took a nice little drive. The weather here has been really nice, it gets really windy in the evenings. I LOVE IT.

We took a little walk at the Kemah Boardwalk. We do this from time to time, and just look at my baby girls face LOL while she is on the train! She is sooo silly.

Then on our way home...this was the most beautiful thing. Look at how calm the water looks. I love how the evening clouds are slowing creeping in. God is good isn't he??

My little Secretary

This weekend, my sister bought us a nice little desk for our sitting area. We got rid of that huge desk.
As soon as the Hubby put it together, my girl sat right in the chair and was coloring. I love it!

Is she not the cutest Secretary EVER!!!!

Love

What is love? I think love can mean so many things.
                                     Love is spending time with that one important person

 

 

It's looking into the most amazing eyes

It's being silly

 It's getting that kiss that just lights up your life

 It's something that takes your breath away....literally LOL

 It's enjoying those quiet, yummy moments

 It's the feeling of safety in someones arms

 It's the little things

 It's waking up to this beautiful baby girl.... That's what love means to me :-)

Drive Home

My moms car has been acting up lately. So, I have been having to take my baby Bean to her house. But our drive home is very relaxing and traffice free. I wait until all traffic has died down. We turn on our radio. We listen to the Love Show with Dr. Jenn and we enjoy our ride :-). And we also enjoy the beautiful view.
Love doing this with my girl.