Heart Murmur

Happy Late Halloween

My little Boo thang has been really into Disney movies lately! And I love it. I sing along with her and act it out with her (I do know ALL the words to every movie haha) and my hubs usually plays the role of the Prince LOL.

I have to say her all time favorite movie is Toy Story. She has been so obsessed with it!!! So for Halloween, she decided she wanted to be Jessie :-) We took her around the neighborhood. We were supposed to meet with some friends but there was a road block and ended up showing up a little later. But we took the time to take her to the fire department since they were doing stuff for the kids.
Here are a few snapshots!

It's been a long hard year!

Trying for baby #2

It's been a couple of LONG, hard months for us. However, my faith is stronger than ever and I know we will get thru these tough times.

In February, I got my regular cycle, and it finished normally. About a week after, I started spotting. I spotted for about 1 month straight. I didn't go to the Dr. because spotting is very common in women who have PCOS. When I finally went ( a month later) she told me it could be the PCOS and went ahead and gave me a pregnancy test. And it came back positive.

As soon as I left there, I went to my OBGYN and he did the blood work and the ultrasound. My HGC levels were very low, and he told me that I was having a miscarriage. Which I kinda know around when it happened. But I never knew that it was a miscarriage because the pain was not strong. I thought it was just cramps. He also said that my progesterone was really low. He suggested that I take some Methylergonovine and it would flush my body of the lining and everything else in there.

The day I took those pills...was the hardest day. I felt guilty, sad, relieved, scared all in one. Guilty because I should have gone to the Dr. sooner and MAYBE this baby would still be growing inside of me.
Sad, because I felt that I was getting rid of the baby. When I know there was nothing left inside of me but the lining of my uterus. Relieved because this would finally be over and we could start again. Scared because I didn't know what would happen during this time.

When I picked up my pills the Pharmacist was so nice, she looked at me. Held my hand, and walked around the counter and hugged. She said " I know this is hard, but God has his reasons" and I truly believe that.

I bled for about 2 month after, the Dr. said he wanted me to flush it out with out having to do a D&C because it could cause me scar tissue, especially since there really wasn't much for him to scrape out.

I finally got at phone call 2 weeks ago telling me that my levels finally dropped to 0! Took them long enough!!!

But now! Its time to start again. He wants me to go on the 3rd day of my cycle and he will determine if I am ovulating. If I am, he will put me on progesterone to help with the pregnancy if I get pregnant. He also put me on Folic Acid and on Metformin. The Metformin makes my blood sugar drop alot! I don't take the recommended dose. I take 1/4 of the pill to start me off. I will work my way up eventually.

In the mean time, I thank God for my little blessing Jade!  She is getting so big and sillier! I also thank Him for not allowing me to see a heartbeat. I think that if I would have seen the heartbeat it would have been harder for me.

Now it's time to baby dance and enjoy ourselves!! So here is to trying to conceive...my 2nd journey to motherhood!

Train Ride at Kemah

If there is one thing my girl likes...it's trains!

She has been asking me for a week, to take her on the train. So finally this Sunday, we didnt have anything planned at all.
We took a nice little drive. The weather here has been really nice, it gets really windy in the evenings. I LOVE IT.

We took a little walk at the Kemah Boardwalk. We do this from time to time, and just look at my baby girls face LOL while she is on the train! She is sooo silly.

Then on our way home...this was the most beautiful thing. Look at how calm the water looks. I love how the evening clouds are slowing creeping in. God is good isn't he??

My little Secretary

This weekend, my sister bought us a nice little desk for our sitting area. We got rid of that huge desk.
As soon as the Hubby put it together, my girl sat right in the chair and was coloring. I love it!

Is she not the cutest Secretary EVER!!!!

Love

What is love? I think love can mean so many things.
                                     Love is spending time with that one important person

 

 

It's looking into the most amazing eyes

It's being silly

 It's getting that kiss that just lights up your life

 It's something that takes your breath away....literally LOL

 It's enjoying those quiet, yummy moments

 It's the feeling of safety in someones arms

 It's the little things

 It's waking up to this beautiful baby girl.... That's what love means to me :-)

Drive Home

My moms car has been acting up lately. So, I have been having to take my baby Bean to her house. But our drive home is very relaxing and traffice free. I wait until all traffic has died down. We turn on our radio. We listen to the Love Show with Dr. Jenn and we enjoy our ride :-). And we also enjoy the beautiful view.
Love doing this with my girl.

Kemah

I play hookie from time to time and spend time with my baby. I love those days because we have such a good time. Here lately she is obsessed with trains. You put her on a train and she is happy!
So that is exactly what Grandma and I did. We took her for a train ride.
We went to Kemah, which is a boardwalk and they have restaurants and rides dor adult and children.
So this was our wonderful day!!!
But on our way home...God showed us his beautiful art

Face's

My girl makes the silliest faces, and sometimes she just sits and stares at you hahah. So I decided to snap a few shots. Isn't she just beautiful. The last picture reminds me of her Daddy ;-)

Evening Routine

I have always suffered from insomnia. Which really sucks because I can go days without sleeping. So, I have tried to make it a point and a habit to go to bed early, which means I have started an evening routine. I feed my Baby Bean and typically shower together (since it's easier for me). We then turn off all the lights and I light a Vanilla/Lavender candle, we turn the A/C down really low, get under our warm covers, sit on my oversized round couch and open the window.
Now, Bean and I get distracted because it seems that our neighbors like to come out at night, and that makes for a really interesting night.
I have to say, this routine has been working ;-)
Cozy spot, awesome view and great company :-)

Trying to connect AGAIN!!!

I know it has been a VERY LONG time since I have actually taken the time to blog.
There has been so much going on. Busy at work and just being a mommy to my Jade. But I also can't forget...spending lots of quality time with my Hubby.
So lets catch up.

We went to San Francisco in September. I have to say...I FREAKING love San Fran!!! It has the most amazing weather. There was alot of fog, but that did not matter. It was so beautiful. The people were really nice. My husband FINALLY scratched 1 thing off of his Bucket list...HE WENT TO ALCATRAZ!!! Here are a few pictures of that


When we first arrived...the transit that they have is pretty cool!

 Here we are on the first day...we were kinda tired from the plane ride...but we ended up going to Fishermans Wharf and saw the seals.

 PAINTED LADIES!!! MY FAVORITE! They were so beautiful, the park across the street from there was super cute too.

 We went on a tour of the city and they took us to this amazing little island called Angel Island. History has it that chinese immigrant during the civil war ended up there. Now, it's a beautiful camp ground. It also smells like Eucalyptus, because mostly all the trees there are Eucalyptus. I loved it. We sat and had some Chili and cornbread.

 Here is the entrance of Alcatraz, It was a really interesting place. To just sit there and think..many years ago, criminals roamed that building. It's just amazing.

 My wonderful husband decided to wake me up at 4 in the morning. We crossed the Golden Gate bridge and he took me to the Marin Wetlands. This is where you can see all of San Francisco.

 Fishermans Wharf had the most amazing seafood!!!! But parking was REALLY expensive! We spent like $400 in just parking for 4 days

 Just a little pictur of the city and trolly.  Small Fact....San Francisco is only 7 miles by 7 miles! Cool Right
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We had such an amazing and fun time. We even got lost when we were there HAHAHA! But the fun thing was, we ended up at Coit Tower...the tallest building in San Fran. AMAZING!

Although, I loved San Francisco....One thing I can say is. I left my heart in Texas, and I was so happy to be back with my Baby Bean again.